Letters from heaven!
I am still processing what I think about what I am about to share, but I know God orchestrates things for us beyond what we can imagine. This week I was especially sad. And that is okay…even expected. But here is what happened. Other people let me know of their own sadness, of “Jim-sightings” , of memory triggers that they have had recently. That does not happen en masse that often. And I am so glad to know that my life partner is still treasured and missed; I love hearing about him and it helps me too. But one message was a bit startling! One friend wrote to me that he had dreamed about Jim. In the dream Jim, who was dead, asked him to give me a letter he had written, and to let me know he loved me. Within an hour of reading this message, another friend stopped by with a letter Jim had written! Yes, I am serious! She was looking through her hope chest and found a letter Jim had written to her back in 1973 that she wanted to share with me. I believe that God had her save that letter all these years for me! Why else?!
I want to add that I do not believe in coincidence. Like Einstein, I think that “coincidence is God’s way of remaining anonymous.” I also believe that God uses dreams to communicate with us. And I am know God loves me so much that he has not left me but is here alongside in the middle of this grief. He is reminding me daily to not lose hope.