We are celebrating the resurrection with the Moses clan. The traditions are very different with teens. They all want to hide the eggs but no one wants to hunt for them! So after hiding some of the eggs for the 3 little girls we realized that we need to get more creative with the 11 young adults. I remember the Cornelius clan used to have egg wars rather than hunts. Well, we have a year to think about it.
Yes every holiday is difficult – as we were warned – I guess in many ways it feels as though our family doesn’t exist any more. Perhaps that is because the traditions as a family with children was already yielding to new routines because we moved from IL and because the kids were older. I know we are still a family but it just doesn’t seem to be the same without Jim. The kids are very busy (due to both their ages and their need to be distracted from the intensity of their grief) and so we often don’t eat together anymore. Further we don’t do many of the activities we used to maintain because we miss Jim. He was the head of our home and so I suppose that now we are like chickens running around with their heads cut off! Boy – this sounds depressing as I reread it.
I don’t mean to whine…and I am so grateful for the hope for heaven that comes with this day.
Because He lives I can face tomorrow…
Because he lives all fear is gone.
Because I know he holds the future …
And life is worth the living just because he lives!