Fear is a liar
I hate the song with that title on the christian radio but there is truth in the statement. I recently realized the prison of fear that several of my friends are living in. They are so afraid. They see enemies and adversaries everywhere. They worry. They are so negative and defensive as if everyone is out to get them. Now I too am susceptible to fear and anxiety. There are many days where I have to fight my way to bravery.
And yet, I am realizing that while perhaps I used to be more overwhelmed by fear, it no longer has the power I once gave it. It has been long enough since I let it grip my mind that I can barely remember what that felt like. Maybe it is because the worst has already happened. Perhaps it is a sense of defeat. Or it just might be a glimpse into the power of a God who loves. Maybe it is remembering that God is in control. He has all the power and He is good and kind. Perspective is everything. Opportunityisnowhere.
By example: I hate moving but it is coming this year. My landlords are going to retire and move out of state and they will need the equity to put down on their next home! I have not liked living so far from work and friends so it should be a no brainer BUT for the cost of housing. I know God will provide something but it is such an “overwhelming undertaking.”
I recognize that these are first world problems. I am once again forced into an exercise in perspective shift. I am nudged into remembering that I get to choose to see the glass as half full or half empty – or just gratefully hold the glass! I get to count my blessings about the gift of a safe and more than adequate house to rent for the past 6 years. I get to watch God work and provide more than I could ever ask or think. I get to trust. I get to pack up A LOT of stuff after getting rid of stuff and be grateful for all I have been given. I choose to look to the God who loves and who is in every detail of my future and not lean into the fear of the unknown.
Here we go … Again!