So it would seem that a new job has inspired several other new or fresh starts, including working on diet and exercise, developing a new normal as far as daily routines go, and cracking some new books. It would seem that I have, for the first time in a long time, mustered some new motivation! I will move forward cautiously so that I don’t overwhelm myself with so many goals that I give up, wear myself out, or fail trying.
There have been many “new things” to tackle since Jim got sick and then went home to heaven. And several of those things I have been reluctant to master. In fact, I have only done some of them kicking and screaming (inside) because I am not good at them and because I want Jim to still take care of it. It is when I am pushed to do these kinds of things that I miss Jim even more than the usual 24/7! Yet, I am learning to fix things, maintain the cars, hitch up the trailer to haul stuff, take care of the finances, shop for hardware and insurances, and assemble things (ie. furniture from Ikea).
One thing of which I am increasingly convinced is how important teamwork is. Many people I observe complaining about their life partner or their friends, seem to take for granted that they will miss and need that person more than they ever thought possible. Perhaps we all do that. I remember that I never appreciated the weather of California until I lived in Chicago. After that I vowed I would never complain about the weather again and learn to be thankful for whatever God chooses to give us each day. I am not sure that what I learned to do is significant, but I must say that it has helped me to remember that everything is a gift. I am not entitled to anything. For me, my perspective has changed through a thankful heart. I guess the words of the Joni Mitchell song Big Yellow Taxi are very true:
Don’t it always seem to go
That you don’t know what you’ve got
‘Til it’s gone
So it is with a thankful heart that I say, “Here’s to a fresh start”!