Seventy Years Ago
Today I celebrate the person God created with me in mind before the world was even made . Humbly I thank Him for loving me that much when Jim was made. “Those who are wise will shine like the brightness of the heavens, and those who lead many to righteousness, like the stars for ever…
Fifteen yrs ago – the Last Time –
They say that a person is not really gone until no one remembers them any longer; when someone leaves earth some part of them remains and their memory is left behind for their loved ones to hold on to. (Think Pixar’s Coco). I have worked hard to remember Jim and keep his memory alive so…
Sapphire Anniversary #45 – Mohlers est. 1980
Sapphire Memories – It has been 45 trips around the Sun since we pledged our love before God and it wasn’t long enough. Sometimes the days fly by. The last anniversary with Jim was 15 years ago. It has been a long time and occasionally the loneliness is unbearable. Grief is so isolating. I still…
Pops Concert 2025
In the fall of 1977, when I started as a freshman at Biola, my dad told Mr. Lutke that I played clarinet. Mr. Lutke persistently called me until I would give him an audition and a promise to give the band a try. If I had not joined, I would never have met Jim nor…
69 Years – Today is Corny Joke Day!
Before November 8th, 1955, before the twinkle in Lionel’s eye 9 months prior to that, before any life on planet earth began, Jim was loved and his life was orchestrated by a good God. And this loving God knew all about who Jim would become and who he would influence. He planned for us to…
Stepping into the Gain
“For to me to live is Christ and to die is gain.” Phil. 1:21 It has been 14 years since my Jim stepped into the Gain. It has been only 5100+ days but it feels like an eternity. It is interesting that it is eternity for Jim! God placed eternity in each of our hearts…
The Last Goodbye
When Jim was on hospice several family and friends made their way to our home to spend a last time with him. The “blessing” of cancer (which is tough to call it that), or any lingering illness rather than something more immediate and sudden, is that there is a small window to put one’s affairs…
Advances in Treatment
Not often, but once in awhile after seeing an ad on TV or hearing of another person with the dreaded disease, I wonder what would have happened if Jim had gotten GBM4 today versus 14 years ago. The majority of brain cancers are highly invasive and rarely spreads to other parts of the body beyond…
44 years later
Today marks my wedding anniversary. 8.23.80. Forty -four years ago I said yes to a lifelong adventure with Jim. We were able to enjoy that adventure for over 30 years.. There has been so much life with loss but also so much joy. I marvel at the life God gave me and the story He…
Holding Hands #33
Holding hands is one thing I miss – A LOT! Holding hands seems like an ordinary thing to do but it is also a very intimate thing. 44 years ago tomorrow I gave my hand (and my heart) to Jim as we promised to have and to hold. Holding hands means so many things and…