Windshields & Rear View Mirrors
I don’t even think twice about looking out the front windshield when I am driving; it is the way I learned to drive! What is in front of me is far more important than what is behind me when I am heading down the highway! The rear view mirror is smaller and is designed that…
I need a new word
Sometimes I miss you because you made me laugh Sometimes I miss you because I have a question that I know you would be able to answer I miss someone else helping me with chores and responsibilities; making goals, plans and sharing plans and my day at the end of it. I miss cooking and…
The Heaven Reflection
A Jimbo Reflection (a birthday reword of The Rainbow Connection with gratitude to Kermit) Why are there so many thoughts about heaven And what everyone’s doing today? Jim’s so happy, singing and playing Heaven’s so hard to convey This life is short; the next is forever I know it’s real – wait and see Someday…
I cannot remember your laugh!
Dear Jim, I never thought it would happen, but 8 years after you went to heaven I cannot remember what your laugh sounds like. I cannot remember other things about you but nothing bothers me as much as not remembering the sound of your joyful silliness – one of my favorite things about you. I…
Women’s Summer Study Panel 6/13/18
Nearly 40 years ago, when I was a student at Biola and met my future life partner I anticipated many things, but no matter what one anticipates the future is never certain. Who would ever have anticipated where God would lead us? Or how many kids we would minister to or raise? Who could anticipate…
This is Us is Us!
Grief is part of the landscape of life. It made itself at home long ago and yet I realized its presence in a profound way when my life partner left earth. It is always there and I ignore it in the same way that I function with a low grade headache or keep eating popcorn…
Jim is 62 in earth years
62 years old in earth time! I miss you every day! 7 years since he went to heaven. 2555 days. 61320 hours.3,679,200 minutes. Nothing in our lives is the same since he left except our love for him as a husband and father. I am not sure how time or events or anything else is…
Seven
After Us I heard a statistic when I was first widowed that every cell in my body would be replaced in a seven year span, so that none of my cells now would ever have “known” Jim. I googled that and it is not true! Seven is just a number and on the other side…
Get over it
This would have been our 37th wedding anniversary; it is one of those weird things that I am not sure how to word. I am never clear on which verb tense I should use or whether or not I should keep counting the years at all. It is so confusing sometimes! I used to say…
My lessons of Grief So Far
6 years ago I began a new journey as a widow through the valley of the shadow of death. I have learned a great deal about grief and death since then and I know I have a long way to go in that journey, but here are some of my thoughts so far. Death is…