It has already been 6 years
6 years since the strange shuffling of his foot and the droop in in his smile. 6 years since he seemed to become slow to respond and abnormally quiet. 6 years since the “C” word entered my life and altered the landscape of my existence. 6 years. It seems distant and faded in many ways.…
Blue Christmas…reflecting on living between the advents
It is hard to admit because it feels shameful to be sad, but the fact of the matter is that this season is not easy for me. I guess I feel guilty and embarrassed that I can only outwardly appear to be composed and at peace when inwardly I feel that my grief is so…
Mirm in Wonderland
There are so many childhood fairy tales that have hidden meanings if we look for them. Sometimes they are there intentionally as in Narnia and sometimes perhaps there are just lessons that can be applied to our own story like a parable. I love both kinds of tales and the secret lands that I find…
Miriam on 34th St
It is my 34th Anniversary so I decided to have a little picnic in honor of the day. Jim proposed at 34th street in Newport Beach on Christmas day in 1979. I was trying to think of some clever way to remember and honor the day. There were several interesting ideas*… but in the end…
Three Years
Dear Jim, What would I say to you if I could see you today, three years after you left earth for heaven? I know that there are events and thoughts that happen all the time that I want to tell you about. For example, I work at church now as an Admin in the Student…
My post today as I get ready for tomorrow…
This is morbidly funny on the anniversary eve of Jim’s graduation to glory! (Just the kind of thing he would have told) (A lesson to be learned from typing the wrong email address!!!!) A Minneapolis couple decided to go to Florida to thaw out during a particularly icy winter. They planned to stay at the…
33 years!
I know some might consider it silly to keep celebrating my anniversary even though Jim is in heaven but on this date I changed my name, committed my life to another and began a new family. That family still exists and I am dedicated to its survival. I just cannot ignore a day that forever…
The Hope of Glory
Oops! I see that none of my posts have made it on to the blog. When I figure out why not I will re attach them; although it is all old news at this point. Yet, for the 2 of you who read this blog, you might be interested anyway – hahaha! Today, it has…
Janet Marilyn Wheeler 3/14/34 to 12/16/12
We are home from our trip to Arizona to say goodbye to my sweet Aunt. We drove a small U-Haul home today with too much stuff. Sigh! More purging than I wanted for 2013, but it will be good! This is the Eulogy I gave at her service at St. Peter’s Episcopal Church in Litchfield…
Ode to Jimbo on his 2nd heavenly Birthday
2 years ago I tried to create a eulogy using one of Jim’s favorite stories, but it was just not right at the time. I worked on it for the 2nd anniversary of his death. I have a new appreciation for poets and I still have a broken place in my heart! It is weird…