Jim is 62 in earth years
62 years old in earth time! I miss you every day! 7 years since he went to heaven. 2555 days. 61320 hours.3,679,200 minutes. Nothing in our lives is the same since he left except our love for him as a husband and father. I am not sure how time or events or anything else is…
Seven
After Us I heard a statistic when I was first widowed that every cell in my body would be replaced in a seven year span, so that none of my cells now would ever have “known” Jim. I googled that and it is not true! Seven is just a number and on the other side…
Get over it
This would have been our 37th wedding anniversary; it is one of those weird things that I am not sure how to word. I am never clear on which verb tense I should use or whether or not I should keep counting the years at all. It is so confusing sometimes! I used to say…
RIP Dinah
So we had this cat. We got her in 1998 when she was a kitten and the kids were little. We named her Dinah after Alice in Wonderland’s cat. Dinah was mostly Emily’s cat. She loved to cuddle and sleep with us. She had a season of not being nice and we often told her…
JCM
My best friend has said goodbye to both of her parents. They are part of the great cloud of witnesses. They have shaped my life as well as their 5 children, 15 grandchildren, 25 great grandkids and 2 great-great grandkids. I cannot remember many childhood memories without this family. They went to my church, gave…
My lessons of Grief So Far
6 years ago I began a new journey as a widow through the valley of the shadow of death. I have learned a great deal about grief and death since then and I know I have a long way to go in that journey, but here are some of my thoughts so far. Death is…
Anticipating Grief – Embracing Grace
Life with a big future full of dreams. Together. 36 years ago I said “I do”. Life was perfect. I was marrying the man God ordained for me. We made wedding plans. My dress was designed by me and sewn by a family friend as were the bridesmaid’s dresses. Rings were bought. Flowers ordered. Cake…
The 5th anniversary – Nov. 5
So today is the 5th anniversary of the day Jim breathed heaven for the first time. That day will always be surreal for me as I reflect on each moment of that day. There were highlights like singing over Jim as he left the shadowlands for glory. There are regrets and things I would have…
Why – Not?! Learning to live in the how…
My mom and I had dinner recently and as we were talking she mentioned that the question “Why” is almost always the wrong question. It got me thinking and wanting to ask the question, “Why is that?!” (hahaha) Why do humans always want to know why? We seem to have a need to justify things…