Letters from heaven!
I am still processing what I think about what I am about to share, but I know God orchestrates things for us beyond what we can imagine. This week I was especially sad. And that is okay…even expected. But here is what happened. Other people let me know of their own sadness, of “Jim-sightings” ,…
Thirty-One Years! 8/23/1980
Does it still count? It is hard to know what to do today or how to process my feelings. Today would have been my 31st wedding anniversary. I think I will go to 31 flavors to celebrate. I am sure that Jim would have come up with that idea had he been alive! I put…
God, Hold the pieces of my heart!
2 Cor. 2:7 “God’s secret purpose framed from the very beginning is to bring us to our full glory” I know that everyone has regrets. No way around it. It has been my goal, however, to live with as few of them as possible. That said, I do hold that idea in tension with the…
8 months ago Jim inhaled Heaven for the first time!
Today I took off my wedding rings. I don’t know if it is a big deal or not or if I will put them back on eventually . I guess it was a way of closing a door that I didn’t want to close. I need help to believe I am no longer married. I…
First Father’s Day without Jim
This was a really hard day for us! The kids lost both their dad and one grandpa this year! We at least have my dad, who we celebrated! But, my kids spent most of the day sleeping. I guess it is a good way to avoid the day! We did decide that in the future…
7 Months is Forever!
Another month has gone by since my best friend and life partner went to heaven. I don’t know when it will get easier. Maybe it won’t. I miss him. A lot. Many have asked me why I don’t write more often. Well, working full-time and managing solo is really hard and quite frankly I am…
6 Month Anniversary
I am not sure if I am following any sort of “normal” grief pattern, or even if there is such a thing, but at 6 months I can say that for me the fog seems to be lifting in this valley, the shock is wearing off, and I am realizing that I have to make…
Five things on April 5th – the Fifth month without Jim
Jim went to heaven 5 months ago. Today would have been his dad’s 86th birthday. I think because I anticipated this day with such caution, it was not as hard of a day as I thought it would be. (It was sort of like seeing an accident about to happen so you get ready for…
Through the Valley
It is so weird to mark my current life by the illness and death of Jim. Maybe I won’t always take such notice, but the fifth of every month has proven to be especially emotional. Perhaps today more than any other because not only has Jim been in heaven for 4 months, 2 years ago…
Lionel Louis Mohler April 5, 1925-Feb.14,2011
Today Jim’s dad went home to heaven. We will miss him. Heaven gets sweeter every day! The Funeral service is planned for Sat. 2/19/2011 at 11am at High Desert Church in Victorville.