Happy Anniversary Mom & Dad!
Today is my parent’s 55th wedding anniversary. First I want to say “lucky” because I won’t have the same rare blessing. Second I want to say “blessed” because their marriage is another visible example of the communion of the Triune God. Third, I want to say my siblings and I are so fortunate for the…
Ode to Jimbo on his 2nd heavenly Birthday
2 years ago I tried to create a eulogy using one of Jim’s favorite stories, but it was just not right at the time. I worked on it for the 2nd anniversary of his death. I have a new appreciation for poets and I still have a broken place in my heart! It is weird…
My biggest fear
One thing I was often fearful of was that I loved Jim too much and so God would take him from me. Then my worst fear came true. I know that is not accurate because I know that is not what God is like. And yet, on really dark days I still wonder if there…
Harvesting Hope!
I was thinking of the expression, “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade” and while I understand the point of this proverb, I must say I rather like lemons. Perhaps the saying really should read (for me anyway) – When life gives you manure, grow a garden. I say this because what we have been…
Another Year to Live Fully Surrendered
It is my birthday, which is like a new year. I don’t really dream or plan or set goals anymore – at least I haven’t the past few years. But as always I want this day, this year and this one life to count. There is a line in some movie that says, “Ooohhh, that…
No Longer a Teen!
My beautiful sweet Emily is 20 years young today! There are so many memories and hopes and tears and joy in raising this unique and special gift from God. I often wonder if I did fail to recognize and respect her unique dreams and talents, because I was so focused on the strenuous work of…
“Once Upon a Time – 32 years ago…”
So I am not sure about how to word this: “It is my 32nd Anniversary” or “It would have been my 32nd anniversary”. My “Once Upon a Time” began more than 32 years ago at Biola, in the Symphonic Winds to be precise, and I know that love stories don’t have happy endings because love…
Moving is INTENSE! (get it?! In tents)
Warning: I am just going to ramble awhile to diffuse my frustration and to vent and sort out my thoughts about the weekend I moved Jim’s brother. Last weekend I was reminded of several biblical truths as I spent the weekend hauling up stuff from the bottom of the LA River bed, where Jim’s brother…
The Freeway Game
Jim and I used to play a game that we called the freeway game. The object of the game was to take as many freeways as you could to get to your destination. Of course we made many sub-rules and variations and for some reason we only ever thought of playing it in Southern California.…
21!
Jim was diagnosed 21 months before he went to heaven and now it has been 21 months since he has been there. Today the sermon was all about marriage. UGH! Had I known I would have skipped it! It is so hard to feel like I fit anywhere anymore. On another, more positive note, my…