Eleven in Heaven
Today Jim has been in heaven for 11 months, but I know it only counts on this side of it for those of is who are waiting (to finally enter Narnia)! I think of the 4th verse of the hymn Amazing Grace: “When we’ve been there 10,000 years, bright shining as the sun, we’ve no…
Letters from heaven!
I am still processing what I think about what I am about to share, but I know God orchestrates things for us beyond what we can imagine. This week I was especially sad. And that is okay…even expected. But here is what happened. Other people let me know of their own sadness, of “Jim-sightings” ,…
Thirty-One Years! 8/23/1980
Does it still count? It is hard to know what to do today or how to process my feelings. Today would have been my 31st wedding anniversary. I think I will go to 31 flavors to celebrate. I am sure that Jim would have come up with that idea had he been alive! I put…
8 months ago Jim inhaled Heaven for the first time!
Today I took off my wedding rings. I don’t know if it is a big deal or not or if I will put them back on eventually . I guess it was a way of closing a door that I didn’t want to close. I need help to believe I am no longer married. I…
First Father’s Day without Jim
This was a really hard day for us! The kids lost both their dad and one grandpa this year! We at least have my dad, who we celebrated! But, my kids spent most of the day sleeping. I guess it is a good way to avoid the day! We did decide that in the future…
7 Months is Forever!
Another month has gone by since my best friend and life partner went to heaven. I don’t know when it will get easier. Maybe it won’t. I miss him. A lot. Many have asked me why I don’t write more often. Well, working full-time and managing solo is really hard and quite frankly I am…
6 Month Anniversary
I am not sure if I am following any sort of “normal” grief pattern, or even if there is such a thing, but at 6 months I can say that for me the fog seems to be lifting in this valley, the shock is wearing off, and I am realizing that I have to make…
Five things on April 5th – the Fifth month without Jim
Jim went to heaven 5 months ago. Today would have been his dad’s 86th birthday. I think because I anticipated this day with such caution, it was not as hard of a day as I thought it would be. (It was sort of like seeing an accident about to happen so you get ready for…
3 months or 2 years depending on how you look at it!
Hey all! It is now 3 months since Jim went to heaven. It was also 2 years ago that this wild adventure with GBM (glioblstoma multiforme) began! I have now started a site that is easier to access and will be posting there from now on – however randomly that may be! It is a…
Two Months Ago
This entry is reprinted from blogspot on January 5th 2011 Two months ago Jesus came through the door of heaven and carried Jim home to heaven. That sacred moment began a new journey for all of us. And now it feels like my full-time job is grieving my husband. I think about Jim ALL THE…